Every word of this song resonates with me as I think of my mom... We knew her time was near, so we got to say our goodbyes... My family told her we loved her and what a great mother, daughter, and person she had been to all who knew her, and how proud we are of her and all that she had accomplished... But I left out the simple things; like what a great driver she was... how only she could make that perfect mug of coffee that try as I might, I could never replicate... and how much I admired her...
What impacted me most in the song was the longing to know she's ok... I used to wake up with anxiety attacks because I was so worried she was buried alive... The death release was made at home, as she was under hospice care with us at home, and passed away peacefully with us around her... I worried that they might have made a mistake, and that we buried her, and now she's awake and stuck in the coffin... That thought kept me up at night...
I have been with her through every journey... Sat with her through her chemo treatments, scans, surgeries, and every hospital stay... This is the one journey she has made alone... I wished I could have travelled with her to Heaven's Gates, so I could see her off, happy with the knowledge that she's safe and in Heaven... Her last words to us were, “Mother Mary said she's coming tomorrow to take me to Heaven”, and that at least gives me some comfort... I can pray as many novenas I can for her, but all I wish is that I could talk to her once again and hear her say that she's ok... So, I felt every word of this song...
Sending hugs of comfort to all those dealing with grief and loss of their own, especially the family of Mdm. Vijayalakshmi, the Masjid India sinkhole victim... My family and I were there for my mom's final breath, but I still worry for her, so I cannot imagine the pain and worry they must be going through, not being able to see their mom and get some form of closure...
To all those dealing with loss, may time bring us healing from our grief while we treasure every memory we shared with those we loved and the time we got to spend with them...
The full song is available here :
